26 February 2009
The Accidental Clean Slate
)Published on February 26th, 2009 @ 09:18:03 pm, using 266 words, 84 views
A blessing in disguise, we decided it was, my off duty rescuer and I. My designated rock this afternoon, when I came undone. And what a coming undone it was. The kind that’ll split you in two - split you into one who cries and can’t help crying and sees no end to the crying and one who looks on at the storm in a teacup, sympathizes and feels ashamed of the entire ridiculous scene.
We all have scenes we remember making and continue to make. We count ourselves lucky for small audiences and for the people who are able and willing to show us the angle we can’t find by ourselves. 53º may have been the (borrowed) angle today. Marking an end and then a beginning… maybe? Some cyber glitch or my own too fast unthinking click wiping the slate clean when I couldn’t have done it myself. A helping hand (like the colorful helping hand Facebook karma) wiping my desk(top) clean of that which it decides I have no use for, teaching me the hard, painful way to let things go, and let things be. We are more than words, my half naked rescuer and I.
I have suddenly been made to swerve from my history of matching history only with what?s registered and handcuffing the two. History is in what one feels and in what one builds.
It?s a new era, my rescuer tells me. And I believe him wholeheartedly.
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